Saturday, May 7, 2011

i left....


 
you dont love me over here anymore because city lights dont glimmer on my marble floor.and every kiss i gave you, you never went searching for. waiting gently for you to tell me that you want more, your soul still lies empty as you think about the past and wishing you had the things that didnt last. why cant you move on and focuson whats ahead , you would rather dread misery, disparity and loss of love instead. but i see on you th elight , shinning a ray of hope, right now its not much, but the tip of a saving rope. soon you will be pulled near and forget all your fear, as the dawn breaks in you, the spirit will soon follow near , love will be your new home , where your heart can rest and sleep you can bask in the light shown, where the water runs deep my love with be yours if you choose the peace with in me.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

I LIED!!!
                 There is a part of me that i hate that makes me sick and makes me hate my self down to the very last bone. this part of me was created by a horrible habbit that was driven by fear. I am a good person I have the most pure intensions and honestly all I want is to be loved but so afraid of it at the same time. I created these walls almost like a distraction from letting people know who i am , looking back on what i have done its the lame reason its the most selfish thing i have done in my entire life, i never saw a person that would ever love me enough to want to take the time to get to know me.after well lets call him caden for privacy reasons, i trusted him for the first time in my entire life after my dad would pop in and out of my life like a bad cold. and i felt so dumb and worthless after it turned out to be an epic fail a fail that took me a long long time to get over , i made a promise to my self that no one will love me the way i want to be loved so i needed to protect my self from anything that may or may not come in my life i felt all men were the same.